As I sit down to write this, I have been thinking a lot about the journey that I have been on. I have walked through some things I never thought I would have to go through and yet here we are. I don’t write this as a look at me, but rather as a look at God statement. It is only through Him and through faith and the strength He bestowed on me through Jesus Christ, that I can stand here with such confidence. Not too long ago, if I am gut level honest, my faith was hanging by the edge of a knife.
Tomorrow is March 19, 2026. Why is this date significant? A couple of years ago, I did not think the day would come. Tomorrow, we kick off our 10th Anvil Men’s Boot Camp weekend. This was a mission that God put in front of me nearly 10 years ago. It became an opportunity to share my faith and story in the context of some teaching that absolutely transformed my life. Without the message that John Eldredge shared through Wild at Heart some 25 yeas ago, and if a colleague named KC did not gift me a copy of that book 14 years ago, I honestly can’t say where I would be. Was I beginning to pursue Jesus? Yes, but what that message did for me changed the playing field. Story for another time.
As The Anvil got underway, I was blessed with the privilege to see God move and change lives in ways I could not have foreseen. It wasn’t even about the message itself. The most holy aspect of that weekend has been the dedicated space men had to sit with God on their own with questions that challenged them to look deeply at themselves. There is not a magic formula. We don’t fix everything in a man’s life in a single weekend conference. What can happen, however, is the trajectory of their life can change. The space is created to unplug from the matrix for a few days, and without distractions, to be able to contemplate some important things in their life and faith. Read Wild at Heart and you’ll gain some understanding of our roots and where we take men.
So back to tomorrow and the start of our 10th Anvil. It’s a big deal that it is our 10th, but it is our first in 3 years. Our last weekend in 2023, came on the heels of a life and death battle for my wife, Amber, after she became ill in the fall of 2022, and was not expected to survive. Miraculously, she made it through. We had to move our fall weekend to that Spring because of the situation, and it was a good and holy time. Bouncing back from that ordeal to be able to step back into that space was so great. It did my heart a lot of good and I knew God was not done.
We planned our next weekend for a year later, in early 2024. By January 2024, I felt an ache in my soul that we needed to postpone that weekend, after discussing with my team, we agreed that it was a good idea. Little did I know that a month later, my 24-year-old son, Brandon, was going home to Jesus. He stepped into eternity on February 27th. We were, of course, devastated. What do you even do with the loss of a child and all the questions that surrounded that? 3 months later, the grief caused my wife’s condition to flare, and she was back on life support, and again, doctors thought she would not survive, but miraculously, she did. What a rollercoaster of emotion in and out of grief.
Time moves on. Every so often, someone would ask me if The Anvil would return. In the months after my wife’s last hospital stent, there was a time when I thought that it had maybe reached its expiration date. Maybe it was time to move on. I did not know. Again, every so often, someone would ask if Anvil was coming back. I remember at one point, though I never vocalized it to anyone, I would get fairly pissed. I was nowhere near the position to take on that assignment again and part of me would wonder if people really understood what I was going through. That was not often, but I would be lying if I said I never thought about it.
My word from God as I entered 2024 was “low seat.” I honestly did not know what that meant at the time, before everything happened. It hit me later, that it was my season to step back. I did not have to lead for a time. I remembered something my friend Morgan from Become Good Soil shared years ago, which was “Take the low seat, until God makes it impossible to do.” Doing so gave me the space and capacity to grieve as I needed to and allow God to do the work on my heart.
As we entered 2025, the words that God gave was “patient endurance.” The year became about waiting on God. He was still refining me and then things began to shift. As the year progressed, I could feel an awakening happen in me again. Vocationally, things were getting in line with my passions, and I felt I was finally able to find the space to even think. I could go into that so much more, but I’ll leave it for now.
Remember the last part of that quote…”until God makes it impossible to do.” As we entered the quarter of 2025, I felt that nudge, again. The nudge to step back out and entertain the idea of bringing The Anvil weekend back. This was different. It was more than just sharing this message with the men; it was also a revival of my heart and soul. I sat with God on it and it felt like it was time.
Now, here we are. Tomorrow, we go back on mission for the first time in 3 years. The team of men that have surrounded his mission with me, has meant the world. Their patience and understanding, while I was walking through the valley of the shadow of death, has been tremendous. We go on mission tomorrow! I never know what God will do when we step onto those grounds. What I have learned, and this goes with every aspect of life, is to sit with eager anticipation and expectation of His goodness. It is in His hands now!

Last week, in the midst of all this craziness, we held our 5th Anvil Men’s Boot Camp. In the days leading up, I didn’t know how ready I would be. The men that facilitate with me were each struggling with their own junk and worried about even leaving their worlds and going. What was wild was, in the midst of it, I didn’t think I was ready for the teaching load I was about to deliver, but it all flowed so much better than in the past and I carried it, with what one man said, with greater passion than before.
So fast-forward 5 months. As the story goes, I am ambushed by the Holy Spirit and for the first time in my life, I am overwhelmed with God’s love and I just feel His presence overtake me. As I’ve written before, my life was never the same after that trip to Colorado, to the Wild at Heart Boot Camp.
year as nearly 20 men venture into the mountains. God grew me and the team up right out of the gate, reminding us that he was in charge. Spearheading the weekend, I teach most of the sessions that we hold. Oh boy, you want to talk about feeling unqualified, that was an understatement. But the Lord was faithful and it went through.
It, however, turned out to be a great evening, with some honest talk, some laughs, and some deep prayer and contemplation.
As I think about it this, I guess I’m writing this post as a reminder to myself, just as much as it is for all of you. This is not about me or any of you. This life is not about us. It is about God, as the author, creator, and perfecter of our story and lives, through Jesus Christ. Every morning, as a part of my prayer, I pray that God helps me to remember that this is all about Him and not about me, that He is the Hero of this story and that I belong to Him.

This is something I carry as well. I used to be very closed off about myself and people laugh, that didn’t know me before, when I say I am naturally introverted. I guess that’s how I operated in my false self where my predominent style of relating was to move away from people. I didn’t want to be known. Now, I’ve come to realize that transparency is critical. Being known is crucial to effectively lead and minster to people. I look at Paul. If you read through the epistles, you see a man who is very open about where he had been and how much he struggled with where he had been before encountering Christ.
It’s been nearly a month since we returned from our first men’s weekend, The Anvil. If you did not see my last post, this was a retreat designed and modeled after John Eldredge’s, Wild at Heart. For this weekend, 18 men, most from my local church, took a risk to step away from life and into the wilderness for 4 days. If you knew about my personality and demeanor, you will note that I am planner. My preparation for something like this is fairly detailed. I want to makes sure that things go as smoothly as planned. I spent a lot of time writing content and working with my other leads to ensure we were on the same page and getting everything organized.
So now we’re ready. All the content is written. Final details are being nailed down and tomorrow we head to the mountains. We’ll have some great times of learning and fellowship and times of one-on-one with God, and some adventure on the Wild and Scenic Chattooga River, yes where they filmed Deliverance. Hopefully no banjos on the shoreline. Just kidding.