Have you ever had those moments where you felt like you were called to do something radical and different? You sat and pondered the idea and felt like it was something you needed to act on. Then in the midst of preparation and putting that idea together and bringing it to life you fall back and start having thoughts pulling against you. Thoughts that may the result of fear and anxiety over what you are about to do and then quiet often, fear over what others might think of it. Then you start to question your own motives and often questioning God’s motives and wonder if you can really go through with it and where He may be calling to go.
I’ve definitely had those moments. Many of you saw my last post “My Faith Testimony,” where I stood in front of the camera for the first time and shared with everyone my personal faith testimony and journey of how I came to building a relationship with God and Jesus Christ. Those reading my blog will know that I first posted about this idea over a month ago. I knew that was going to be a big moment for me and faith journey and knew God was leading me to take that step. Over the last month, time and time again, I questioned myself and even prayed if this was what God really wanted me to do. It would pull me away from the idea and took me some time to finally get up in front of the camera to do it.
What you don’t know, is that it took three efforts of recording to finally get it to where I wanted. After the first time through I was so caught up in critiquing myself and was so scattered that I almost scrapped the idea. I felt throughout the days after that something was trying to stop me and I started thinking very negative about it. After a few days of prayer and discussion with my wife, I was motivated again and trusted that God was leading me down the right path. Since posting, I realized that it was the right thing.
Sharing my story and journey took a lot of guts for me. I am quite the introvert. Very reserved and am not one that goes out to seek attention and conversation. God was telling me that I needed to take a giant leap of faith though. I realized from this that when He is calling on you to do something new and big, you just have to trust Him. Trust where God is leading you and have faith in the results. I don’t do any of this, writing or the videos for my own sake and glory. For me it is all about God. It is all about drawing closer to God’s heart and helping to lead people to draw closer to God as well.
The enemy will try every way he can to stop you. That is where the doubts and fears come from. You begin to worry about what the world will say if you answer that call; if you make that big change or do the task thrown before you. You start to stress about potential consequences and start hearing conflicting thoughts in your own head. I dealt with those same thoughts. I often deal with those thoughts when I write too. That feeling of hesitancy before hitting the button to publish.
Simply put, trust in God. Have faith in where He is leading you. Have the confidence to take the leap. You’re going to always have naysayers. You’re going to always contend with some kind of negative trying to slow you down or prevent you from doing what your being called to do. Spend time in prayer. Listen to the promptings of the Holy Spirit. Know that God is using you for His purpose and have faith that your efforts draw you closer to Him. Give God all the glory. The results may not always be what you expect, but trust what God expects and what He’s doing.
You have a choice in it all. God gave us that will to make the choice. He knows where He wants to move, but we have to decide if we follow where He leads or go our own way and where the world tells us. Have faith in Him. Saint Augustine said, “Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe.” Your faith will bring about great reward in the end. Hold tight to that.