I have been counting down to this day for the last few months. Hard to believe it’s already here, but I can’t tell you how excited I am to be starting my work to on my Masters in Professional Counseling. It’s a journey into the unknown that I never thought I would have the courage to do. I knew, however, that once I was fully surrendered to the Lord, and knew where He was calling me, there was absolutely no way I was going to turn away not do it. It’s a wild feeling. I am excited about the possibilities, yet at the same time, as I write this, I am literally shaking on the inside as the nerves about the unknown set in.
It’s all a risk. I could be perfectly content spending the next 25 years finishing my career in the corporate world. I could just enjoy the salary and benefits of that world and live out there. I could spend my life under the radar and just cruise along going with the flow. But now that I am all in, there is no way I can do that now. God has been calling me in my writing for the last several years. I just didn’t listen enough until now. So now, I am making a leap of complete faith and Trusting to where my God is leading me.
It’s all about trust and faith. God told me something back in January and has told me this a few times since then when I have questioned what I’m doing. He has said to trust Him and to just let go. That’s what I have to do now. I have to trust fully in the Lord. I have to let go of my own self-reliance and self-centered ways and allow Him to work in my life. Trust is the key to it all. Do we trust in the works of God and the finished works of Jesus Christ? Do we believe in His unfailing love and unending pursuit of our hearts and our lives? Do we trust in Him with our lives?
I used to often doubt myself. I would just go along thinking that it was easier to just get along with the world and not rock the boat. To hide all my junk, all my sin, all my wounds, and the emptiness in my life to just let the world dictate my decisions. When I would get a little courage to step forward, something would pull me back or I would doubt myself again and life would return to what it was. I would sometimes here the enemy putting in my heart that those were just silly ideas. That I needed to just get along. Live a secure life with steady and secure income and all that. Don’t rock the boat. Don’t venture off the smooth path. What was it old school preachers used to say, the smooth and wide, gold filled path of the devil. Never understood that until recently.
I look to Scripture also when thinking about trusting in the Lord. Romans 10:11 says, “Anyone who trusts in Him will never be disgraced.” That gives me great confidence in knowing that if I just my full trust in where He is leading, that I can’t go wrong. How can any of us go wrong if we are trusting Him. It doesn’t mean the way will always be easy, because it won’t. There will be difficulties. There will be times where we are pushed to our limits and I know I will be in this too. But disgrace will never fall if I trust in Him.
Look to the Psalms too. David said in Psalm 31:14, “I am trusting you, O Lord, saying, You are my God! My future is in your hands.” I am praying for the same level of trust with my life and that I just let God take control fully and trust my future to His hands. That’s what we all need to do. Trust in the Lord with all that we are. Love Him, Trust Him, and Worship Him.
George McDonald said, “Few delights can equal the presence of one whom we trust utterly.” That tells me that if there is nothing in the world that can be more satisfying that having God’s presence in my life and trusting Him with my life. How could I possibly let anything else steer me away from that. Augustine said, “Trust the past to God’s mercy, the present to God’s love and the future to God’s providence.” Now that I have dealt with my past junk and surrendered that to the Cross of Jesus Christ, I can let God love me in the present now where I trust in Him and then allow His will to unfold in my life.
It’s going to an exciting journey. Going to be busy and I know there will be days where I won’t want to write a single thing. But I will keep updates rolling on my progress as the journey to be a Christian Counselor begins to unfold. I definite seek prayers in this journey as well.