The last 8 weeks have to have been the most stressful part of my learning that I’ve experienced to this point. I was balancing two classes with my counseling program and Liberty University, which I have done in previous semesters, but something about this just was so challenging to get through. The learning was so rich though. There was so much value in the knowledge gained and things that will be very valuable I begin to draw nearer to real-life counseling work. You ever have those times when you feel like you don’t know whether you are coming or going? That’s what it felt like at times and last week, being the final week of the sub-term, I was on scramble trying to get it all done and close out the classes right.
In the midst of all of that craziness, I had to keep my mind refocused. It can be so easy when things just get so crazy and busy, to even forget why you’re going through all of that. There have been a couple of days where I’m asking myself what I’m doing. Before, when things got like this, it would be so easy to be taken out. Nowadays, my whole mindset has changed gears and I know what I’m in this for. What am I a doing at 37 going through school, again, for what will be my 3rd degree? It’s simple, I’m now doing the Lord’s work and to get through it all, I have to keep tunnel vision.
I listen to guys like KB and Lacrae when I workout every morning. There’s a song by KB called “Zone Out” that really says it all, and when I get bogged down in craziness, this begins to often play in my head. It’s like the Lord is resetting me and continually reminding me what I’m in this for. The part of the song that I hear in my head often goes like this:
‘Cause I’ve got tunnel vision, yeah I’m focused on the light (he’s with me)
Can’t see a thang ‘cause I’m focused on the Christ (come with me)
You can try to kill me but you can’t hurt me
You can bring whoever you want, want
You’ll never break me, won’t penetrate
Once I get off in my zone, zone yeah
That’s what it’s all about. Keeping tunnel vision with the heart and mind always focused on Christ and the walk with Him, each and every day. When I get overwhelmed, go back to that. It brings me back every time.
When the Lord puts a calling on your heart, you simply have to follow. It’s not always going to be easy. You may have one day where you are just fired up and ready to roll along and then the next day, or even that same day, things may begin to overtake you and you don’t know if your coming or going (Got my hand up). Keeping the heart and mind focused on where the Lord is leading through all of the chaos is so important.
I’m thankful where He’s continued to lead me and that He’s allowed me to share my own journey along the way. The walk with God continues for a lifetime until He calls us home. Ups and downs will happen, chaos will ensue, but I can see how He grows us up in the process. Just keep that tunnel vision.

Don’t neglect this important part of our reality. I know I have written about it many times, but only because it is on my heart a lot and it is so real, yet many refuse to believe it or are just completely oblivious to it all. Remember, you are created in God’s image and the closer you draw to Him, the harder the battles will become. William Gurnall stated, “It is the image of God reflected in you that so enrages hell; it is this at which the demons hurl their mightiest weapons.” They will come at you head-on, they will attack through those around you, or come at you from within your false-self. As John Eldredge wrote in Waking the Dead, “The is the heart of our Enemy. He is determined to hinder and harm and ruin God’s image bearers.”
Then I pick up the book one day, out of nowhere. I begin to read it. Taking my time, began to absorb it. The lights began to come on. I was pulled into more readings which intrigued me more. There was real movement happening. Then I fly to Colorado for the Wild at Heart Boot Camp. There, life is never the same again. I surrendered my life to Christ out there and came home a completely different man. I was the man I was supposed to be. Who God had made me to be. My whole life changes direction as I was now on fire for the Kingdom. My family begins to respond and see tremendous growth. We begin to forge real Christ centered relationships. I am Baptized last summer and then 5 months later I Baptize my wife and our 3 kids. The ripple effect of that one colleague thinking enough of me to hand me a book, 4 years later has made a tremendous impact.
One more reminder that came through this week came as I began my study of 2 Corinthians the other morning. Right out of the gate, Paul writes referring to the Father as “...the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God” (2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NASB). This was huge to me reminding me that the Father is the source of all comfort and mercy. As a developing Christian counselor and really when it comes to helping anyone with their pain, wounds, and struggles, it is vital to remember to seek our comfort and healing from the Father through Christ so that we can help others in the same light. We cannot do this all ourselves. Just as I wrote before, we do not and will not ever have all of the answers.
When this is remembered, it brings so much more clarity to the day to come. I have found myself more capable to deal with the difficulties that may come and stand strong in any warfare I may face. Psalm 62:8 says “Pour out your heart before Him. God is a refuge for us.” He is there for every part of all we face. We have to call out to Him though. We have to bring our lives under Him. Realizing that we are powerless to face all of the struggles of life by ourselves. When we start our day before God, we lay it all out there for Him. Let it come under Christ’s authority to see you through.
Something that I have found in my life is that these gifts we have don’t really come to fruition until we begin to come alive in our faith and truly seek out the Lord in full surrender to Jesus Christ. When we come into our faith and are filled with the Holy Spirit, God can really begin to bring out those gifts. Paul writes in 1 Corinthians 12:6 that “God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us.” In verse 7 he continues with “A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other.” So each of our gifts we are given are meant to help our fellow man and to advance the Kingdom of God. Paul writes in Ephesians 1:3 regarding the Father that He “has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ.” Being in Christ brings us the blessing of the Father including bringing out our gifts.
When I look back on life, they’ve always been there in some way, even before I came to my faith. Going back to my teenage and early adulthood years, I have often been that person that people could confide in or help with various problems including marriage issues that people close to me had. I was always a good sounding board and could provide some needed advice. As far as writing, I have been doing this as long as I could write in some way, although it was not always shared. I had small books in my elementary school that I wrote, one that won some cool recognition in the 2nd grade. I wrote lyrics in high school to some degree and as an adult, I have been blogging in some capacity for the last 10-15 years about various things. I now realize that it’s always been there. I just didn’t know what to make of it all as life and the world was in the way.
So take some time and look at your life. Have you found or realized the gifts that God has blessed you with. We are all His image bearers, imago dei. He has created each one of us as relational beings to live out our lives seeking Him and to help each other seek Him. Make disciples. Realizing our gifts and how we can use them to advance the Kingdom and make disciples of Jesus Christ is huge and goes a great deal to bring healing and restoration to more and more people. This is freely given to everyone through Christ, but we have to be willing to seek it out. Each of you has a gift…Have you found your spiritual gift(s) and are you using them?
In his book, ‘Beautiful Outlaw,’ John Eldredge speaks to the religious fog and how Jesus himself was very much anti-religious. That’s who he went after directly more times than not through the Gospels. John says this, “The religious fog uses sanctified worlds and activities, things that look and sound very Sunday school to distort our perception of God and our experience of Him. It is cunning as a snake and adaptive as the flu, infiltrating our practices to make them ever so false.” Read the Gospels and as John stated, there is one thing that is unmistakably clear…religion is the enemy. “Every hostile encounter Jesus has is with very “churchy” people. This spirit is the great enemy of our life with God, and it is this spirit that Jesus warned his boys about when they were whispering in the boat about the bread” (See Matthew 16:6-12).
Why do we forget this? There is a cost to following Christ as it will pull you away from many around you, even if you are close them them, if they do not follow as well. However, His yoke is easy and His burden is light. Jesus did not put up more religious walls to shield us from God. No…He opened the door. The goal of living a life in Christ is to live as Christ lived. Not to follow every little thing that He may did, specifically, but to follow His example. In ‘The Spirit of the Disciplines,’ Dallas Willard explained it this way, “The secret of the easy yoke is simple, actually. It is the intelligent, informed, unyielding resolve to live as Jesus lived in all aspects of life, not just in the moment of specific choice or action.”
John Eldredge writes in his newest book, Moving Mountains, “Resist, Fight back. Take your stand. The Scripture is very clear on this point. First, Jesus models it; the the disciples do it; the Paul and the early church. To make it all perfectly clear, the command to fight is also written down in black and white. This is part of what it means to be a Christian.”
I get amazed every day at the works of the God and how He works in our lives and in those around us. As I wrote the other day, a year ago, my life was forever transformed when I venture out to Colorado for the Wild at Heart Boot Camp. The Lord transformed me in such a way, causing me to change the way I live and the way I look at life. It also changed my outlook and approach as a husband and dad. I had always done the best I thought I knew as a husband and father, but I was still falling way short in many ways. I didn’t know how to truly be godly husband and father and lead my family the way they deserved to be led and the way God has called me to lead them.
With all this life change, this Sunday, January 31, one year to the day from when I nailed the stake in the ground to follow Christ no matter the cost, I will be Baptizing my wife and our 3 children. It’s such an exciting time for our family and huge testimony and statement to how far we’ve come in just the last year. To stand before our church family with my family as they also have nailed that stake in the ground is just beyond any words I can really put together. I am proud of each of them for being willing to take this step in obedience in their walk with Christ.
We are all God’s favorite. He has had us in mind from before the beginning. In John 17:22-23 Jesus, in His prayer to the Father says, “I have given them the glory you gave me, so they may be one as we are one. I am in them and you are in me. May they experience such perfect unity that the world will know that you sent me and that you love them as much as you love me.” I’m thankful to have realized that through Christ we are united now with the Father and that He loves us as much as He loves the Son. To now reflect the love of the Father with my family, they now know they are also loved deeply by me and the Father. They know where I stand now, no longer waffling back and forth unsure of life, but now with the confidence of 10 men knowing where I stand now alive in Christ and they are responding. It’s tremendous and the Lord’s work will continue as we are now stronger than ever before.