I have not taken the time to write as much as I would like these last few months. A few blog posts here and there, but as often happens to us, life and priorities get in the way. This morning, however, I felt compelled to make sure I wrote something new. I’ve mentioned this some in my writing and its definitely something that has taken precedence in my book. 4 years ago today, on October, 13, 2009, my entire family and I were tossed into what I call, the whirlwind. On that day, we lost my Dad after a terrible rush hour accident that claimed his life and two of his co-workers, with injuries to six more of his co-workers. It was a day we never imagined would happen and dealing with that tragedy was something we never thought we would have to deal with. We were forced to come to terms with a lot from dealing with our own struggles of faith in why this happened, to dealing with the person that set this event rolling by an act of stupidity. It was an emotional roller coaster that still plays out to this day.
In dealing with this tragedy, I have had to come to terms with a lot in my own life. First, the loss of my Dad in such a tragic way, profoundly scarred me and sent me into a dark shadow for many, many months. I tried to find my way through my faith, but honestly, it was not strong enough yet. For some time, I did not think a thing else in life mattered. If something like this could happen to someone like my Dad, who was a wonderful man of God, and an awesome Father, what was the point of things. I was not angry at God, but I just did not know what to make of it all.
After the first year or so, I began to refocus my life and worked to really make sense of all of the emotions I’ve had to deal with. I have a wife and children that depend on me and I knew that I could not spend my life dealing like that. I began to read more books related to faith and then finally found my way to the Word of God. I made it a point to read every single day. I knew that through God’s word I could find the answers I was looking for in life and a way to make sense of all of of the emotions I dealt with from this tragedy.
Through this journey, I have learned the power that forgiveness has. I’ve learned that despite the anger I have for the one that set this whirlwind in motion, I knew that forgiving was one of the only ways to release that anger. It freed me from the burden of constantly worrying about this guy and was a huge step to move forward. From there, I learned to simply surrender to God’s will. To let him take control of my life and understand that He is in control and has a purpose for everything we deal with in life.
So what of this purpose? What does it all mean? Truth be told, my brother, Rob, said it best at my Dad’s funeral when he said that we may never know all of the answers until we go to meet God face-to-face. I do however think there is a reason that has been revealed now. We often hear the question of why God allows these terrible things to happen. The purpose of it all is quite simple actually. These tragedies are are allowed as they bring us back to God. Often times people stray away. I’m know exception, but through tragedy, many times people find there way back to God as they search for their own answers. This was no exception. I sometimes think that God looked at Dad, knowing he already had a devoted son, and this was a way to grab the attention of the rest of us.
We all deal with tragedies in different ways. The bottom-line however is that through any tragedy in life, if we surrender and turn to God and find redemption through Christ, there is nothing we cannot overcome. Nothing is impossible through Him. Let Him take control. We will always go through all of the pain and emotions that come with any tragedy, but know that God loves you through all of that. He is there with you and waiting for you to turn to Him and I promise you, that you will find the healing and the power you need. He is so Awesome! If I did not have Him to turn to, I don’t know were I would be now, 4 years later. I certainly would not be here writing this. His love and His healing is so real, if you choose to seek it out, surrender, and let Him take hold of your life.
Thank you for reading. I am closing today with this little prayer that you can say just help on your own journey. God Bless you all!
Father, thank you who you are and for continuing to love us everyday. Help us to love you and love each other more and more each day through all of the events of life. Thank you for the redemption we have through your son Jesus Christ. Guide us each day as we learn to seek you more and let you take hold of our lives. In Christ’s name – Amen