In about 4 weeks, I’ll be loading up my truck and making my way across the country back to the mountains of Colorado. This week, I received final details for that week including things to do as a prepared, including finding more time to just speak to the Father asking Him to open my heart to all that He has ready for me on this trip. I realized something. I’ve been on fast forward since last January, after my first trip out there. The Father grabbed a hold of me transforming every part of my life. It was real restoration. I think at this point however, I’ve almost become overwhelmed.
Just as I wrote the other day, walking in real relationship with God requires more of us than we expect. Since last year, my life has been moving fast. We’ve experienced more radical transformation in so many areas of our lives, in my home, than we expected. It’s been something amazing to experience. I do realize however, that if we are not careful, it can be very easy to be taken out again. It can be easy to fall back into ways of the false-self. It can be easy to put back on the fig-leaf. It can be easy to let the exhaustion of the pace leave you spent and vulnerable to the enemy who is seeking to steal, kill, and destroy.
Proverbs 4:23 says, “Above all else, guard your heart, for it determines the course of your life.” This is so crucial for all of us no matter where we walk with the Father. No matter where we stand. If we are not careful, our hearts can easily be taken out again. We are constantly battling with our sin nature and the enemy wants to use that against us. If we are not guarding our hearts, we can be taken out again and again. So the key, I found, is to pray the Father’s restoration through Christ, every day.
I know this seems simple. I realized though, this week, as I was beginning my preparation activities, that I allowed a little more distance to build again. I was trying to do so much, so quickly, that I found it easy to put off walking with God. I’d have thoughts like “Oh, I have to get work going early, so I’ll do that later” or “I slept later, so I have less time to converse with Him, read the Word, and journal…maybe tomorrow.” This does not make me any less of a believer, but I realized that I need to make restoration and renewal an intentional thing…everyday!
Restoration is crucial for. I realized that I need this time unplugged more than I thought I would. It’s like the Father orchestrating another rescue of the heart. Allowing me an opportunity to step back from the front lines and bandage my wounds and hit the reset button once more. I’ve wrote time and again about unplugging from the matrix that this life is. Do an honest assessment and ask yourself how often do you truly unplug? It’s crucial.
We need restoration of the heart, mind, body, soul, and spirit every single day. We also need times where we take days to get away from everything. Whether we retreat to wilderness, the mountains, or the beach. You don’t have to go to retreats to unplug. You can get away on your own. I realize I need this time each year. It’s more than just going on a family vacation, which can also be full of distractions. Find time to yourself to just be with the Father.
A friend of mine one told me he was counseled to do just that. He had become cynical in his faith and was told to make preparations and go away into the wilderness. Don’t even take his Bible. Just a journal to record what the Father reveals. He came back fully alive again, just as I did. This life can run you down, so you need His restoration. He wants to rescue you from this world. Just a Psalm 46:10 says, “Be still and know that I am God.”
Be still. Why is this so hard for us to do? The Father is seeking to restore each of us. He is seeking to walk with us and guide us. He wants to speak to us and through us. We have to be able to shut out the rest of the world, and allow that. Why do you think Jesus always retreated to wilderness to be alone and to pray? He had to allow himself to be restored and stay in connection with the Father. This world can take anyone out. Jesus faced just as much, if not more, temptation from the world and enemy as the rest of us. He needed the time to stay connected to the Father and stay focus on His mission and purpose. We need time to get away and stay connected to the Father to allow Him to Father us, restore us, and keep us focused on our mission and purpose.


“The human heart is made for an epic story…” What do you think this epic story is? For each one of us it is different. God has placed a story in our own lives that all fit into His larger epic story. That is the real story we live in. In The Sacred Romance, John Eldredge and Brent Curtis wrote, “We call the final week of our Savior’s life his Passion Week. Look at the depth of his desire, the fire in his soul. Consumed with passion, he clears the temple of the charlatans who have turned his Father’s house into a swap meet (Matt. 21:12).” Jesus lived from desire. Desire to seek out and do the Father’s will for his life. That’s the desire placed in each of us and it takes us on different paths and in different directions.
As Eldredge said, however, “When we give up looking for that story, we give up living.” In his book Desire, Eldredge also writes, “There is a secret set within each of our hearts. It is the desire for life as it was meant to be.” For many people, the concept of desire seems dangerous and selfish. They associate it with many of the false desires that are placed in our heart through our false self and our sin nature. That’s not the desire and story I am talking about.
Dr. Larry Crabb writes in his book, ‘The Marriage Builder,’ “I am unalterably opposed to any line of thinking that undermines the concept of personal responsibility, and I find myself in general agreement with those who insist people are accountable for choosing godly responses to life’s situations.” It’s amazing how true I have found this to become. Many people are stuck in the the feeling of ‘woe is me’ and do not try to discover ways to deal with the their sins and wounds in a responsible and godly way.
I remember being out at Wild at Heart and I was in deep prayer just dealing with my wounds and sins. I had a couple of guys join me to pray over me and the one thing that really stuck to me, going beyond just allowing Jesus into my wounds was the prayer and encouragement to forgive myself for allowing those things to hold me captive for so long. I had to also take ownership of the decisions I made that were done in a way that ran from God rather than going to where He wanted me to go. The Lord was calling for a reinterpretation of everything to understand that this was not just on others, it was on me as well. Actually most of it was, because, although I did not know better, I did not choose to respond in a godly way before.

Any chance I get to gain something new in my walk with God, I will take advantage of. Something that I have learned to be so valuable also is that we all, men and women, need opportunities to escape the stresses of life. Unplugged from life. I believe this is important, not just with event like this, but to find time to get away , at least once a year. No phones, no work, no distractions. Your soul needs this. As I have shared time and again, why do you think Jesus always escaped to the wilderness. He knew he needed to get away from the chaos in order to walk more intimately with the Father.

I ponder this freedom quite often. I have a sticker on the back of my truck with Galatians 5:1 referenced. It is a constant reminder that I see in my mirror as I’m driving. What does this freedom really mean to us? God intended us to be live in freedom from the very beginning, but we still face a problem where many Christians still find themselves living in bondage and not experiencing the freedom to truly live as they were meant to live. As John Eldredge shared in Free to Live: The Utter Relief of Holiness, “The way of holiness was never meant to be a labyrinth of complexity and eventual despair.” 