I feel like it has been forever since I last wrote anything. Well, it’s been a couple of weeks. Two weeks ago, I made took a journey across the country. Loading up my truck and driving west to the mountains outside Colorado Springs. This was my 2nd trip out there for such a trip. The first was the Wild at Heart Boot Camp last year, and this trip was for the Become Good Soil Intensive, both with Ransomed Heart Ministries. People thought I was nuts for driving out there, but it was just what the Father called for to allow me the opportunity to really unplug from the world for a few days.
When I came home from the Wild at Heart event, I was on fire. I was ready to share with the world everything the Father had done. I was found real freedom and fully surrendered my life to Christ that weekend. This trip out was different. The experience was so holy and the Father’s presence was so profound and real. Getting the chance to sit in the presence of some older, godly men, along with 47 other men close to my age was so rich. I came home with so much on my heart, but I made a conscience decision to slow it down first. I really need to take time to process, even slowing my return to social media in any real way.
So what was different? I gained so much and a big part of me was ready to just get out there and share it with everyone. I realized, however, that this was a journey about really becoming the good soil that Jesus speaks of in the Matthew 13. This is growth and teaching to take to the world, but the first part that must be worked is me. I’m entering into a decade of excavation of my own heart and soul. Truly getting at the core within, tilling the soil with the Father to become good soil. It takes a lot of shit to become good soil, and it requires truly getting into the depth of my heart to bring that out.
One of the biggest things I took away is that one of the most beautiful things God does is take time. The world is in a hurry, but God isn’t. He is beginning a work in me to truly come into my role as a king over my own domain that He has entrusted me with in this life. This is a work that He desires to begin in all of us. To step into this decade, I must crawl, then walk, and then run. With that, I wanted to be very deliberate in how I returned to writing and to life in general.
There’s so much to share and so much to bring to those around me in my world and through this writing. Going to take time with this though as this decade gets underway. I will say that this weekend was one of the most richest times of my life. The encounter with the Father and the other men in attendance was so awesome. It was truly good medicine for the heart and soul.
The most difficult part of it all was coming back into the matrix again. The demands of life were right back again. It was plainly obvious that the enemy was trying to turn me away from this and turn me away from this journey. He tried the same thing when I returned from Wild at Heart. It doesn’t take long. The attacks and the messages come right away if you’re not ready for them.
So let the decade begin. You may be thinking…decade?!?! Yes, decade. As I said, God is not in a hurry. If I try to run through life trying to do everything so fast, I’ll be standing there waiting for my soul to catch up to me. Dallas Willard shared that “The most important thing about a man is not what he does, it is who he becomes.” I can’t be focused on doing, doing, doing, but rather on arranging my life in a way that I grow to experience God fully every single day. The goal is union with God. Walking as the son he has called me and he has called all who chose to follow through Christ. The union and intimacy with the Father is available with us all. Who will you become?